I think it’s time
to stick my iTunes on shuffle and get on with a few things I’ve been meaning to do for ages. Therefore making this day off sick at least slightly productive.
Yes, that really happened.
Ugh, amazing! Her voice is SO good, and I love The Little Mermaid :P I really want to see her live again, bring Brave Enough to the UK please.
I have eaten SO much chocolate this week. As in, I’ve bought and eaten a bar this size almost every day… which is terrible, but I’ve been feel really ill so that’s my justification. But I haven’t yet tried this oreo one yet!
I can’t wait to go home.
I’ve been feeling really rough and become properly ill this week, and I’m off work today and going to the doctors this morning, so I just kinda wanna go home and see my mum and have that comfort. It’s also my birthday the week I go home. And my boyfriend’s coming to visit and properly meet my family. He was really sweet to me last night ♡ And the end of the week we’re going to meet my niece who’s just been born :) So exciting. She’s just adorable from the photos I’ve seen! Just one more week to go…
I think I really like him.
And this really scares me =/ I also feel pretty damn ill right now. My throat is really sore today, and I have a headache and am really tired. Hope painkillers, hot drinks and an early night help…
finally done. My placement is officially over! Just need to meet my bitch of a PE so she can sign the last bits. Dreading that. But looking forward to finally getting my portfolio in, and to getting paid for working!! My supervisor, who is lovely, said today that as far as he’s concerned I should be paid from Monday, and he won’t tell if I won’t. Which is very nice of him! :P They have been a fairly epic two days, especially today. Very busy, but in a good way. Wish my placement had been like it really, I hated not knowing what I was meant to be doing for so long.
Is it strange
that I don’t feel like I’m in a relationship? He made a reference to ‘your boyfriend’ last night and it just sounded really weird. I’ve been single a really long time after being seriously hurt when my last relationship ended. So this is all feeling a bit alien to me. I’ve had no interest in a relationship since then. And part of me wants to push him away. I guess it all feels a bit much at the moment, and maybe I still feel a bit numb.
I am so upset.
I was crying for most of the morning. I don’t understand where all this has come from - it’s just blown up out of nowhere. It’s over such insignificant things, and I’ve repeatedly explained myself as clearly and politely as I possibly can and I’m getting nowhere. She’s actually been really insulting and rude with what she’s written about me to my tutor. She’s taken everything I’ve said completely the wrong way. I have not been rude, I am not being manipulative or intimidating, and I have not outright refused to do what she’s asked - I’ve been trying my best to explain that I didn’t see how I was supposed to do it. Instead of responding with help or advice she just repeated her demands and made out I was refusing. She’s also tried to make out that I didn’t do certain things when I did, and just bringing up issues that either haven’t been mentioned before (because they’re not issues, she’s trying to make them into issues) or have already been discussed and, to my knowledge, resolved. Which is obviously really helpful at this stage :P Just thank god my tutor was understanding and helpful, but had to be blunt at the same time as this must be resolved. I’ve turned off my phone and signed out of my email account all afternoon. I don’t want to check them again :(
Ah I want to go back… our hotel was just up the road to the right of this picture. Such a pretty place.